Day 103: I’m afraid to stop.

Posted by on Apr 12, 2012

Day 103:  I’m afraid to stop.

Day 103.  I hope you’re sitting down—scene 22:  DONE!  Good god I’m on fire!  The reality and interview string outs are done, the script is updated and filled out and the scene bin is prepped and ready to go for Dan the Amazing Editor Man.  I’m a woman possessed.  My crusade combined with my accomplishment group has done something to me.  A productivity spell has been cast.  But alas, I fear it will inevitably be broken.  Have you ever been on a roll—with a diet or exercise program or your writing or whatever—and it seems like the minute you hiccup or fart wrong you get out of your rhythm and you totally lose your momentum?  Next thing you know you’re face down in a double double with fries, you have no idea where your walking shoes are and the desire to open Final Draft mysteriously flew the coop along with the roll you were on.  Well, that’s what I’m afraid of.  I’m afraid to stop.  But stop I must.  Tomorrow is the memorial for a friend’s husband and I promised myself if I finished scene 22 then I could have the entire weekend to write.  But I gotta tell you, I’m tempted to start on scene 23 in the morning!  Something’s crossed over in me.  Now I’m obsessed.  Obsessed with getting through all the scenes.  The challenge is this isn’t a sprint it’s a marathon.  I still have seven weeks in the crusade and 19 scenes to go—19 big scenes with multiple string outs in each one to go.  Yes, I did four scenes this week but two of those were relatively simple ones.  Not so with the majority of the upcoming scenes.  They’re like hills in a marathon.  I know which ones are going to almost kill me and I may have to resort to crawling just to get up them.  Well, I’m just realizing in this moment as I think outside the box inside the box—I’m not going to overthink it, I’m just going to roll with my roll and see what happens—editing or writing—this weekend.  I’ll keep you posted.

Until tomorrow, create from what you have…and roll with your roll.

Kelli Joan Bennett is a filmmaker, actress, writer, entrepreneur, advocate for creative thinking and Founder and Editor-in-Chief of Think Outside The Box Inside The Box Media.

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