Day 183: Halfway Mark

Day 183.  I’m awake.  It’s 3am on the dot.  I’ve been asleep for five hours.  A deep, hard, much needed sleep.  I tiptoe to the bathroom so as not to wake up Uh-mazing Romantic Partner.  I drank way too much water before going to bed last night.  Why did I do it?  It always makes me wake up in the middle of the night to pee.  I need to work on that.  I quietly crawl back in bed and try to fall asleep again.  After a brief moment, I smile.  I realize, more sleep is not happening.  My heart is too awake—too full.  I can’t stop feeling this deep sense of zen happiness.  Last night we went over to Joie de vivre and Beautiful Bride’s house for a birthday party for Joie de vivre’s sister.  It was exactly what this over-stimulated, social media zombie needed.  I adore these women!  I saw old friends, laughed, watched happy children gleefully play in the pool.  Kids and water.  Magical.  An elixir for my soul.  I lie in bed counting all of my blessings, filled with peace and gratitude.  I am a lucky woman.

I’m also intensely aware yet not freaked out that today is Day 183.  Which is exactly the halfway mark in my yearlong experiment in prolific creativity.  I felt incredibly lucky on Day 29:  Leaping in a Leap Year when I realized it was a leap year.  29 days in February?  What?  I have an extra day?  366 days instead of 365?  So awesome.  I picked a good year to start.  Halfway home.  The year is flying!  I panicked a few weeks ago.  The script development stage is taking so much longer than I had planned.  I was supposed to have at least one of my three films in the can by this point.  I do not.  At least the documentary post-production seems to be on schedule for a fall completion—at this point.  But, just like there was no way for me to know exactly how the first six months of this year were going to unfold when I began all of this back on Day 1:  Happy New Year and Here I Go, there’s no way to predict how these next six months will unfold.  I have my plans, I have my intentions, I have my to-do lists—and I will diligently keep taking action.  But I have to roll with what and how the Universe responds—all of it, the surprises, stumbles, and delays.

By 5:03am when Uh-mazing Romantic Partner begins to stir it is crystal clear to me that however it all plays out, whatever happens over these next six months, it will be an incredible journey—an adventure in thinking outside the box inside the box and creating from what I have—which is exactly what I need.

Until tomorrow, create from what you have…exactly what you need.

Kelli Joan Bennett is a filmmaker, actress, writer, entrepreneur, advocate for creative thinking and Founder and Editor-in-Chief of Think Outside The Box Inside The Box Media.

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