Posted by Kelli Joan Bennett
Day 351: I slept 12 straight hours last night and woke up to an early arrival of my period. I feel like a new woman with a new perspective. What happened in Newtown, CT, was certainly a slap in the face. 26 shot and murdered including 20 children. Now that would snap the most self-centered asshole out of anything. Awful. Just f*cking awful. My heart is broken for all of the victims and their families. My thoughts and prayers are with them.
So, I am feeling blessed and lucky to be alive! And, I have been talking with my most trusted and talented tribe today. Getting feedback and opinions and ideas but most importantly, receiving love, belief and encouragement. Thank you Tim, Finn, Syl, and John for your amazing belief in me and tireless support! You are amazing and I am the luckiest woman alive to have you in my life.
I have a call out to Joie de vivre, who as I have mentioned before is an amazing producer and who—I have everything crossed—might somehow have the time to come on board to help me see this the rest of the way through over the next six weeks. And, I also sent an S.O.S. email out to another friend who is a brilliant creative producer and who I consider a trusted mentor—she wrote me a letter of recommendation for the Women In Film Mentor program—about coming on board. If by some magical twist of fate I could have them both, well, then all of my problems would be solved! We’ll see. I haven’t had a chance to connect with these two friends yet, but hopefully, I will very soon.
I’m less shaky but I’m still shaken. My hand has moved away from the plug…for now. Those two key words I have come to know so well through this yearlong experiment in prolific creativity: for now. I am not pulling the plug, for now. That’s all any of us really have anyway, isn’t it? Now? Those unsuspecting souls in that school had no idea that the “now” they were in was their last. Such a reminder to appreciate every moment we have.
I hope you are busy creating a now that is beautiful and makes you smile. That’s my plan.
Until tomorrow, create from what you have….perspective.