Creating 2015—Day 147 to Day 159: I Am An Onion

Today is day 22 of my 33-day cleanse.  And shit is getting real!  Just when I think I can’t be any cleaner—physically or mentally—or go any deeper, I discover another layer I need to shed.  I recognize a new issue I need to look at.  I reach another level of letting go.  I am an onion.  Peeling myself raw and open one day at a time.

I think the most annoying thing I’ve come up against is that after a delicious day of peeling, I can wake up the next morning with the same film of bullshit over me and I have to start letting it go all over again!  Eeesh.  Groundhog Day anyone?

Deep, horror movie style peeling. 

Letting go, literally or figuratively, isn’t some magic bullet.  It isn’t a one-time thing like you see in the movies where an epiphany happens and poof, you let go of your asshole ex, your addiction, your resentment and you move on into the sunset.   Nope.  It is a continuous process, sometimes a struggle, to let go of who or what isn’t good for you, who or what is stopping you, who or what is weighing you down, who or what is sucking your soul dry—especially yourself.  Letting go is about letting go as needed every minute of every day.

11 days to go.  We’ll see if there’s anything left of me at the end of this cleanse.  Although, I suspect the truth is, I’ll never be done letting go.  I’ll need to keep cleansing, keep peeling, and keep letting go for as long as I am living.  Otherwise, I’ll stop growing, wither and die.  Uh, yuck, I say.  I’d rather keep cleansing, peeling and letting go—no matter how challenging—in order to keep expanding and growing and living life to the fullest, thank you very much!

Until tomorrow, create from what you have…layers to peel.

Kelli Joan Bennett is a filmmaker, actress, writer, entrepreneur, advocate for creative thinking and Founder and Editor-in-Chief of Think Outside The Box Inside The Box Media.

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